cocoon crash...
An obscene sense of satisfaction ..in the process of chasing them away. Distress eclipses after having chased them away. A perverse sense of complacency at not making an effort, a vulnerability envelops when I make an attempt towards making an effort. That’s exactly why it seems so futile. That’z exactly why you want to remain in your cocoon…secure and uncomplicated…away from eyes that seek…away from eyes that perceive…away from eyes that question…away from eyes that are brimming with nostalgia. You want to push it all away. You seek solitude n repose…but it gets lonely somewhere, sometime, somehow.
And then u realize what a complete mess u’ve made of yourself and those who cared about you …once. It’s a horrible sinking feeling. To chase illusion you destroy reality. It’s a price you once chose to pay, but you live to regret, coz it’s not worth it. You just grow to realize you enjoyed the suffering …and now you don’t.
Heh ..ironic ..i thought I knew it all ..but things never did turn out my way ..and the loss was entirely mine.
“I thought I knew it all
I thought I had it made
How could it end this way?”
-Megadeth
And then u realize what a complete mess u’ve made of yourself and those who cared about you …once. It’s a horrible sinking feeling. To chase illusion you destroy reality. It’s a price you once chose to pay, but you live to regret, coz it’s not worth it. You just grow to realize you enjoyed the suffering …and now you don’t.
Heh ..ironic ..i thought I knew it all ..but things never did turn out my way ..and the loss was entirely mine.
“I thought I knew it all
I thought I had it made
How could it end this way?”
-Megadeth
posted by NEHA DUTTA at 3:36 AM
2 Comments:
yes you are right .. everyone seeks security which does not exists .. btw its really nice blog
@ guckster: lack of a certain mutual comprehension or empathizing with another might care but doesnt quite want to want to understand your idiosyncrasies...you often feel vulnerable and exposed with them ..u don't want to justify to them your idiosyncrasies or eccentricity. Like a friend once said "Lust is way simpler"...cheers to those who have it the easy way!!
@ Ankurindia: security exists in ...you just need to acknowledge it ...u need to risk trusting someone and seek it and let them take care of you ...so security exists ...just that it's not a constant in our existence ...we seek, it hides, we hide, it seeks us.
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