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18th Sep'06

Phenomenal absurdities…relentless discovery…rules in the book…transgressions…observing …silence…headrush…nostalgia…an instant shot of pain…release …ecstacy…habitual smiles...cacophony…finding yourself in a crowd ..stars...lost in narrow spaces…beacon lights…addicted to the pursuit…conditioned to wander aimlessly…it’s never over ..chases and chases …a constant pirouette, the gyre keeps unfurling beneath you...

a bohemian hangover ...

19th sept'06

ennui ....alas!!...sigh ..the bourgeois subdues a revolution ..the capitalist slavehouse can be extremely anal!!!

washed down in quicksand of contradictions and substitutes...retrieve the debris.

12:49 PM: wandering soul defies to be subdued.
an urge to quit
quit the obvious
quit the past... the present.

Glass in front, reflects ambiguous truths.. a mirage of barely visible forms;
A sea of obscure forms brought from the past to the foreground
into the glass they mingle with barely visible forms...
The glass tells an array of stories
Clock strikes...
It's a different story.

20th sept'06

Lukewarm day ...stable existence …where’s my beer?

Highpoint of the day: nothing changes :(

21st sept'06

wasted state the morning after...
arrgggh...hangover and slow day at work ...lethal!!!!!!
brain collapsed...detest it!

25th sept'06

juxtaposing euphoria and apathy...
a messed up cognizance, it remains...
a parasitic dependence
a familiar sinking feeling.

29th sept'06

"I gave a weak smile; he came close and put an arm around my shoulders; I clung to him and wept quietly. The warm physical pleasure of tears running down my cheek. What a relief! It is so tiring to hate someone you love."
- Simone de Beauvoir"